OF BATTLES AND REALIZATIONS

Thump, thump, thump, the pounding in my head matching the beating of my heart. A migraine threatening to split my head in two. A testimony to the war waging inside me. Mind versus heart, fighting to overpower each other with every thump.

My mind wispering logic, my heart igniting passion. Two parts of a soul playing tag of war. My body serving as the battle field. Enduring every wield of the sword, every stab, every cut, bleeding me out. Leaving my will power gushing out. Craving control like the next breathe of fresh air.

Deep down I feel my mind giving in. A wall crumbling down, surrendering to the jabs my heart is putting in.Laying all the cards on the table.

 Slowly I fade away too. I fade away with every wrong decision it makes, I fade away with every betrayal I endure, I fade away with every look of rejection I get, I fade away, I fade away.

Gradually feeling like a tenant in my own body. Hollow from the inside out. My values, passion and respect, all washed away by the flood that is you dear heart.

With every beat you remind me of my bad decisions, with every beat you prove that you are in control, with every beat you love and with every beat you prove that I live. I live another day to hear my mother's voice, I live another day to watch my siblings grow up, I live another day to love and be loved in return, I live another day to accomplish my dreams.

With every beat you remind me to live life with vigour, to appreciate it because every breathe is worth a dime and to take the bull by horns because like life, it's going to be a bumpy ride. Full of excitement, freedom and thrill in equal measures.